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Last night, I noticed the bright lights of a police car and ambulance shining in the direction of my hall. This got my attention..I looked out the window and noticed a firetruck, ambulance, and police car/van thing parked near the “shortcut” entrance of Claire Trevor. Just as I thought they were leaving, they drove and parked in front of Cielo! I quickly pulled on warm things and walked over to try to see what was going on.. but everyone was inside the hall. Of course I’m not going to be that blatantly nosy and go inside and ask whats going on. -_- I was definitely curious though and i hope everything was okay :S. So I just nonchalantly walked by and walked past Cuesta (the hall I stayed in for SPOP; good times. n_n) and saw that their common room was decked outttttttttttttt in cute, colorful, bright Christmas decorations. They even had one of those light-up animal things.. a reindeer with a moving head. I freaking want one of those to put in front of our hall too!! Not because they had it, but because it would just be so cute. Viento has a nice but smallish rounded grass area in front of our hall—perfect for putting those cute light-up animal things. But it just occurred to me that of course, it would very likely be stolen by some jerk.  It would be cute nonetheless.

Anyway, as I was crossing the lawn between Cielo and Cuesta to enter our hall through the back door, I looked up at the night sky and noticed how superbly dark it was at that spot and how it would be a great place to stargaze for future meteor showers. It was soooo dark! Perfect! BUT, the area has a very limited viewing range as there are two tall structures on either side (Cielo and Cuesta) PLUS a tree in the middle. But who knows, I’ll test it out next time. (:

This little walk inspired me to scribble something down. As I was writing though, I thought, should I use ‘vie’ or ‘long’? I thought and thought because that’s what I, a terribly extreme overthinker, does even at a silly moment like this. (or actually, maybe I wasn’t overthinking in this case… I was merely being conscientious; what do you think?) I pondered, vie and long both mean to want something, to want to get something. But ‘vie’ has a more proactive meaning.. it’s more like to struggle or strive for something, while ‘long’ seems to be more passive. So I asked myself, do I want to actually struggle for something or do I merely want something? And I realized that if you are willing to struggle for something.. it is most likely that you just simply want that something too.

Across the raven sky are winking stars I see

But on your mind is where I vie to be.

After this week though, I don’t even know if I want to struggle anymore. It doesn’t seem worthwhile at all. But maybe i only say that because i havent been approaching things the right way. I hope I have the strength and luck to know what to do and if necessary, when to finally give up.

with Love, and Hope.

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these questions were taken from a post on mancouch.

What turns you on? kissing my neck.. well kissing in general, no doubt. making out slowly and taking sweet time.. taking breaths in between each kiss. licking his teeth, tongue, and the inside of his mouth. just thinking about the way his mouth tastes and feels. him exhaling to me and making noises of satisfaction as we kiss deeply. our 'cute' kisses too. heavy breathing. dirty talk, whispered dirty talk, rubbing my thighs, stomach, chest, ass. spanking me. his hands slowly running up and down my sides, following the curves of my waist and hips. being thrown on the bed, or pushed down.. him taking charge. just knowing that he's loving it and that he wants more, badly..

What's the strangest or most daring place you've had sex? havent had sex.

What's the one thing you like doing in bed the most? (You can't say sex. It has to be something done during sex) refer to #2. cuddling, kissing passionately, pressing my body against his and just laying with him..

of course these arent the only things. but they are some of what i will miss about him.

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i have to say, you've got me feeling emerald all over. why does it have to be this way???????? i need to work three times as hard now, but for what i am not even exactly sure.

i need to stay on weekends.